This is not the path I wanted for my life. It is the path I choose. For example, I don’t have any children. I’m not going to get into semantics but just to maintain full-disclosure: I haven’t seen my daughter since she was five. She is twenty-two now (but I’ve talked about that elsewhere and… [Read more…]
March 10, 2012
I’ve been looking for these. I guess I have to try these all until I come to the right fit.
March 8, 2012
And often I find myself standing in the wrong place. Over. And over. And over…
December 9, 2011
For a father there are little moments of unadulterated terror. For teen fathers it is all terror – at least for me. You see the life you imagined dissolving into the life you’ve chosen. I’m not complaining – my daughter was the single best gift of my life – but the reality is nothing can… [Read more…]
December 8, 2011
As far back as I can remember I was bullied in school. I read science fiction, comic books and poetry. I drew, painted and wrote. I was principled, upbeat and cared about people, animals and nature. I spent many hours exploring the woodlands behind my house in New York. I was also shy, immature and lonely.… [Read more…]
December 3, 2011
I’m exhausted: physically, mentally and emotionally. And truthfully, that is not a bad thing. What is keeping me going is a spiritual experience I’ve been embracing. I know corny. Especially considering that I’m agnostic. Probably….I think. Which, if you’ve been paying attention at all, is consistent with most of my life: a belief in something greater than myself and… [Read more…]
November 28, 2011
Estrangement alienation: separation resulting from hostility alienation: the feeling of being alienated from other people estranged – alienated: caused to be unloved estranged – Having become a stranger, of one who formerly was close, as a relative, friend, lover, or spouse to arouse especially mutual enmity or indifference in where there had formerly been love,… [Read more…]
November 25, 2011
I broke my ankle last week. Okay. That is a bit hyperbolic. I only chipped the bones in my ankle. Essentially, I fell into a hole. More specifically I fell into an erosion ditch. Well, I landed on a rock jumping over an erosion ditch. The rock was big. And round. Okay! Okay! I fell… [Read more…]
June 13, 2011
My grandfather died last August. His death significantly changed my worldview. Ralph’s death helped me see the mythology of my family is not the reality. And honestly, it pissed me off. It pissed me off because for the first time I was able, with the guidance of a caring but uninvolved friend, to see the… [Read more…]
June 9, 2011
Recently, I started an attempt to renegotiate the reality of my past in order to create a more authentic future. Most of you probably have a history of negotiating successful, open loving relationships in a more traditional mold. I haven’t, and as a result, many of the things others take for granted, I am forced… [Read more…]
March 11, 2012
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